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Oww – a little pain

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Autumn after her surgery

Editor’s note: This is Autumn’s personal experience of her recent bilateral orchiectomy. It contains some graphic language.

Well, “Oww.” And by that, I actually mean physical pain in my genital area due to gender affirmation surgery. Seriously, my scheduled bilateral orchiectomy (“orchi”) with Dr. Tuan Nguyen was accomplished on Aug. 17. The surgery went well and essentially to plan.

The surgery itself was an uncomfortable experience, somewhat on a par with my trips this year to the dentist. I wasn’t fully anesthetized for my surgery; my orchi instead was accomplished under a local anesthetic. Even now, post-surgery, the experience is far less painful than that dry-socket I experienced at the removal of a molar a number of months back.

Dr. Nguyen told me I was a good patient, which I took to mean as saying that I took to the surgery well, and I wasn’t a particularly difficult patient for him to work on. I just figure physical pain related to transition (e.g. electrolysis, laser hair removal, various surgeries, etc.) is just a byproduct of the process of being a transsexual.

What was difficult with the surgery related to surgery I had back in spring of 2000, a few months before the end of my U.S. Navy career. I spent the first four of my last eight months of my Naval career assigned to the Medical Hold unit at the Navy Medical Center San Diego, being treated for depression related to the sexual harassment experienced near the end of my 20-year Navy career, as well as, of all things, surgery for a varicocele.

A varicocele forms when valves inside the veins along the spermatic cord prevent blood from flowing properly. This causes the blood to back up, leading to swelling and widening of the veins.

On Aug. 17, about 11 years after that surgery for my varicocele, Dr. Nguyen had to deal with the scarring from that varicocele surgery when performing my orchi. And, during and after the surgery, the most pain associated with the surgery was in the scarred area of my abdominal cavity, just below my right side kidney.

Prior to the orchi, I felt some tension-related physical symptoms in anticipation of the surgery. Emotionally though, I was feeling pretty flat before the orchi. In other words, I wasn’t feeling joyous or afraid about the upcoming surgery.

After the surgery, I didn’t feel strong emotion related to it either. It was just something related to the transition process.

I know a lot of gay and straight men who would shudder at the thought of having their testicles removed. It’s a cringe-worthy moment. But there’s a difference between genital surgery for transsexual women and genital surgery for gay and straight men (such as losing one or both testicles due to testicular cancer). Transsexual women feel no sense of loss at having their genitalia reshaped, and most often feel joy, a sense of relief, and/or no significant emotional response at the loss of one’s testicles and/or the inversion of the penis to create a vagina.

Where I’m beginning to feel some emotion is at the reality that in my birth state of California, I’ll now be able to petition the courts to change my legal sex, and once the petition is granted be able to change my name and sex marker on my birth certificate. Per the state of California records, I’ll be a female-born-female. That is a wondrous, amazing and welcome outcome I’m really, really looking forward to.

So the short-term “oww” is for long-term benefit on so many levels, the most important benefit in my mind being the soon government recognition that my female gender identity is my sex … that I’m a woman. That gets a “Yay!” from me.



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Posted by LGBT Weekly on Aug 25, 2011. Filed under Trans Progressive. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0. You can leave a response or trackback to this entry

3 Comments for “Oww – a little pain”

  1. Why anybody would share such information publicly is beyond me.

    Why this paper would promote fraud against the state of California and marginalize it’s credibility even among the LGB seems irrational from a business sense. The Gay and Lesbian times would never stoop so low as to allow a columnist to commit fraud by falsifying birth records.

    Autumn, you are no more a female than Jerry Brown.
    You need to be outed for the fraud you are.

    • I have to agree. The only “gender” that is being “affirmed” by this surgery is that Sandeen is male. This is part of an attempt at fraud, and it should be dealt with accordingly.

  2. I propose Tamar start dating Africans, if she isn’t doing it already. Then slip out a “video” “accidentally”, Perhaps she can “hit it big” like Kim, and we will all be so jealous of her.

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